
Don't forget to weigh in today! I am taking a leave of abscence from weighing because I have been "absent" from my world for at least half of this week. I did not deal well with having to go on medication for my thyroid (today is day 2 of taking my pills). I am not a medicine taker...I hate taking anything. I have made peace with it (for now).
My trip to my parents' home for Mother's Day was hard. It was hard to only get to see them for 15 hours and then come home. I miss Lil Sis so much I can't type this sentence without tearing up. My grandparents have quit living and only talk about death and sickness..I came home and had a "melt down."
I miss my parents...I miss my sis...I miss my grandparents...I miss my side of the family...I miss BFF Ruth...I miss getting to go to events regularly for my family.
Then when I came home I pulled into our driveway...I found every flaw possible...I looked for them...I found a problem and I took it on myself...I found everything that needed to be done and became obsessed with how it was never going to get done because I couldn't do anything about it.
I scared my mom....I worried my husband...I hurt Manga Dork's feelings...I was ugly and I was going to wallow in it. How did my inlaws react? They somehow decided it was all about them and gave me guilt trips about "not liking them"..."not wanting them here"..."not feeling like they are important"..."not asking SIL to go to AI concert." Boy...that was not helpful at all. I became numb and retreated inside myself.
I was selfish...and now I am over it. Time to move on...
"Most people are only as happy as they make up their minds to be." --Abraham Lincoln
"When you reach the end of your rope...tie a knot and hang on."--Abraham Lincoln