Practically In The Middle Of The Street

Some of you may remember me posting about the group of ladies I used to get together with to make cards once a month. I couldn't figure out why all of a sudden I was not being invited and my Stampin' Up consultant was acting really chilly when I called to ask for a new catalog.



Last Thursday night after the parade of costumes in our little town I saw one of the girls and decided to finally ask what had happened.



I asked, "Do you have any idea what I might have done to "K"?" I told her I was hurt and worried I had done something to make her mad.



She kind of stuttered around at first and then her face totally changed and she got real, "It was your blog." What?! She said, "We had seen how you were talking about your MIL and were all worried you would talk about things we said about people." I think she even said something about how things get around our small town.



It is no secret on my blog that I had a very rough time with my MIL and still do from time to time. I used my blog to vent so I wouldn't start WWIII in our family. I am not sure how they could think "things would get around our small town" when on my blog I don't use my real name or location. Other than a family member or 2 she was the only one with my blog address. This is also the reason I know SHE had to tell the others about my posts...they don't read my blog.

I realized I was standing in the street and traffic had started to go through. I numbly walked back to Dr. Hubby's office. Then...I lost it. I did the "ugly cry." I was heart broken. Who do they think they are? I kept picturing them sitting around the table discussing how they need to "protect" themselves from me. I felt so betrayed.

I cried through the KFC drive thru...I cried when I called my mom and told her the story...I cried when Dr. Hubby and I were discussing it. Manga Dork was so mad. She had attended the workshops with me and felt betrayed by these ladies too. The next morning my eyes were so swollen, but I was past being sad...I was mad!

I had enjoyed the workshops so much. I thought these ladies were my friends. I had put my all into everything I created for our swaps. I had seen 4 of them out and about and had given them a big hug...genuinely happy to see them. I had even hugged the one in the middle of the street! They each made exscuses for why there had been no workshops. They had all talked to me like nothing had happened. Fake.

I am over it now. Knowing what I know now...you could not pay me to have anything to do with these women. They were not my friends. Their gossip is safe now that I am not there to post it on my blog that no one they know reads. I am sure I will be the topic of the next get together. Well, I hope they recognize how I stood up for myself...how I know things were twisted...how the only thing I posted about them on this blog was how I didn't know what I had done wrong to be excluded...how they handled things WRONG!

If they will throw me under the bus for such a stupid reason...it is only a matter of time before they pick someone else to go under there with me.

I am left with a dilemna. I do not want anymore of my words twisted. I actually don't want them to have access to anymore of my thoughts. I do not want to go private. Should this be the end of this blog? Should I take this opportunity to create a new blog...a new start? Do you think this is wimpy and I should just not care if they are reading it? Don't worry...I will take all my bloggy friends with me! I need your opinions! Help!