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Thursday, April 16, 2009

A Letter To My Fat

Dear Fat,
I have a few things I would like to say to you. You are not a good thing. You are a negative influence in my life. You make me cry alot. I am worried about how you are affecting my health...I get out of breath lately. You would think that I would do everything in my power to get rid of you. Yet I do everything in my power to keep you around. It's like I want MORE of you. I feel powerless. I know the things I should be doing to kick you out...yet I do the opposite. You make me feel bad about myself...as a matter of fact I believe you have damaged my self esteem to a point I feel it may never recover. I hide behind my kids. I don't make eye contact. I don't feel worthy...I feel like a failure because of you. Why do you have such control over me? I can honestly say...I hate you. I am not fond of that word, but it is the only one that fits. What scares me the most is that I think I have passed on my bad habits to my daughter. She is fighting you too. This makes me mad. You also affect my relationship with my husband. I can't stand for him to hug me because he will feel you. You are no fun. Hopefully one day I will find the strength to kiss you goodbye.
Scrappy Girl

12 comments:

Merrianne said...

SCRAPPY GIRL!!!!!!!!!

Can i PLEASE copy & paste that & mail it to my fat, too!!?!?!!?!?!?

Dana and Daisy said...

gosh it sounds like an abusive spouse in a way! How do you feel after writing it?

DV- Rebecca L. said...

You can do it!! Start by loveing all of you now- that will help her love herself and not shame it worse.
You are so awesome and you need to give yourself more credit and positiveness. *hugs*

Jan the crazy lady said...

Sorry you are feeling this way Scrappy. Truly I feel so sad for your heart today. I think your great no matter what your scales say, but I truly understand the depth of your feelings.

Start out slow and think of your daughter the whole time you make a choice of food. Maybe that will help. I wish I had that magic wand about now. But no one has ever passed it to me :)

Take care and hugs your way.

Cherie said...

Losing weight is the hardest thing EVER and it is lonely. You can do it!!

whoopsadasie said...

Scrappy, I feel your pain! Fat has been with me for a LONG time now! I am struggling to get rid of him. However, I do not hide b/c of him. I will not give him the power that he wants! Please don't give Fat the power over you. Don't let him effect the beautiful person you are! ((((hugs))))

Bobbi Jo said...

Sweet Scrappy Gal I think we were separated at birth or you have been reading my mail. This is so much of what I have been feeling. I will be praying for you and if you want to join in on the restart button check out my Health Habit blog I am pushing it on Monday http://thehealthhabit.blogspot.com/
Hugs coming across the mile, Bobbi Jo

tammy said...

I know this. I keep telling myself, at least I have good hair, but I compare myself to everyone. I'm ready to make some drastic changes. I want my body back.

Mother Goose said...

I keep saying time to dust the tread mill off. Summer and beaches will be here sooner than I think. Small changes will be the way! You can do it scrappy. I am thinking about doing WW and having the entire family eat healthier.

DesertHen said...

(((HUGS))) to you Scrappy! You can do anything you set your mind too!!

Mechelle said...

I think you are beautiful just the way you are. But I do think developing healthy habits is good for you and the girls! SO go girl! M

Pancake said...

I feel your pain! Trust me a DO I DO! I hate my blasted fat, but it likes me, it doesnt ever want to go away.. I cant even get the flu to get rid of a few pounds!