Dear Fat,I have a few things I would like to say to you. You are not a good thing. You are a negative influence in my life. You make me cry alot. I am worried about how you are affecting my health...I get out of breath lately. You would think that I would do everything in my power to get rid of you. Yet I do everything in my power to keep you around. It's like I want MORE of you. I feel powerless. I know the things I should be doing to kick you out...yet I do the opposite. You make me feel bad about myself...as a matter of fact I believe you have damaged my self esteem to a point I feel it may never recover. I hide behind my kids. I don't make eye contact. I don't feel worthy...I feel like a failure because of you. Why do you have such control over me? I can honestly say...I hate you. I am not fond of that word, but it is the only one that fits. What scares me the most is that I think I have passed on my bad habits to my daughter. She is fighting you too. This makes me mad. You also affect my relationship with my husband. I can't stand for him to hug me because he will feel you. You are no fun. Hopefully one day I will find the strength to kiss you goodbye.
Scrappy Girl
12 comments:
SCRAPPY GIRL!!!!!!!!!
Can i PLEASE copy & paste that & mail it to my fat, too!!?!?!!?!?!?
gosh it sounds like an abusive spouse in a way! How do you feel after writing it?
You can do it!! Start by loveing all of you now- that will help her love herself and not shame it worse.
You are so awesome and you need to give yourself more credit and positiveness. *hugs*
Sorry you are feeling this way Scrappy. Truly I feel so sad for your heart today. I think your great no matter what your scales say, but I truly understand the depth of your feelings.
Start out slow and think of your daughter the whole time you make a choice of food. Maybe that will help. I wish I had that magic wand about now. But no one has ever passed it to me :)
Take care and hugs your way.
Losing weight is the hardest thing EVER and it is lonely. You can do it!!
Scrappy, I feel your pain! Fat has been with me for a LONG time now! I am struggling to get rid of him. However, I do not hide b/c of him. I will not give him the power that he wants! Please don't give Fat the power over you. Don't let him effect the beautiful person you are! ((((hugs))))
Sweet Scrappy Gal I think we were separated at birth or you have been reading my mail. This is so much of what I have been feeling. I will be praying for you and if you want to join in on the restart button check out my Health Habit blog I am pushing it on Monday http://thehealthhabit.blogspot.com/
Hugs coming across the mile, Bobbi Jo
I know this. I keep telling myself, at least I have good hair, but I compare myself to everyone. I'm ready to make some drastic changes. I want my body back.
I keep saying time to dust the tread mill off. Summer and beaches will be here sooner than I think. Small changes will be the way! You can do it scrappy. I am thinking about doing WW and having the entire family eat healthier.
(((HUGS))) to you Scrappy! You can do anything you set your mind too!!
I think you are beautiful just the way you are. But I do think developing healthy habits is good for you and the girls! SO go girl! M
I feel your pain! Trust me a DO I DO! I hate my blasted fat, but it likes me, it doesnt ever want to go away.. I cant even get the flu to get rid of a few pounds!
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